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Ya Allah… mudahkanlah kami menempuh jalan orang-orang yang telah engkau beri nikmat atas mereka, yaitu orang-orang yang memeperoleh hidayah dan istiqomah. Bukan jalan orang-orang yang Engkau murkai, yang hati mereka telah rusak sehingga mereka menyimpang dari kebenaran meskipun telah mengetahuinya. Bukan pula jalan orang-orang yang sesat yang tidak memiliki dan tidak mau belajar ilmu agama, sehingga mereka terus-menerus dalam kesesatan dan tidak mendapatkan petunjuk kepada kebenaran. Amiin…

Missy Missy!

As you can see in the picture, the picture was taken last year.[left to right:Hoon,Saikat,Mikael,Faisal,Yijing,Ccha,Oba,Me,Sist Rini,Ka Ayu,Poppy]

Nowaay! I cant believe it, IT WAS LAST YEAR! All this fun happened LAST YEAR! hahaha

I miss Yijing, Hoon, Ka Ayu. I hope we can hang out like this again. :(

Yijing is in China right now, and I heard that she got a job there. Its WOOW, She got a high paid salary. I guess she will go shopping with her money on her favorite brands. *HUHUHU im so jealous of you Yijing :( *

I hope I had a job this summer. Buuuh nevermind, it was my laziness that made me not getting a job. I finished making my CV a month ago but I didnt search for a job!

By the way, she's going to New Zealand around October to study abroad. *I'm wishing you a good luck Yijing! *

As I remember, that day (17/04/08) was our first hang out with the guys in Wakra Beach and it was my first hang out with Yijing too.

Ok let me tell a story of how we started talking to each other openly. hahaha

It was afternoon (thurs,17/04/08 red.). riiiiiing (bell door) I opened the door and saw two girls saying HI!The girl with a white shirt and long hair waved at me and said hi to my mom when she entered my house.Her name is Yijing Huang. She smiled at everyone. "She's sweet.How should I start a conversation later?Is she the quite type of person?I hope I can talk to her easily later", I said it silently.

The guys promised to pick us up at 4 pm but "WHAT??" they came around 5 (almost 6 pm). OMG! We were a bit pissed off but we chilled down after they came and said with a smile,"Its ok guys.Sorry to bother you guys of picking us up hehehe :P".

We went to The Mall to buy chips,drinks,chocolates to stock up in the beach. We even bought Pizza Hut in Wakra. Actually our plan was to have a BBQ in the beach but ended up of buying junk foods instead. hehehe

It was an unkown side of wakra beach where the girls'd never been there before. It was dark,so dark that we used Mike's and Faisal's headlights to brighter us playing Monopoly. Oh yeah the sweet part was when Hoon gave his cap to Yijing as the headlight facing directly to her. We girls were expecting Hoon to date Yijing later. HAHAHA. Ccha and Yijing slept over at my place. We spent our sleepover-night talking about what'd happened of that day --this was how we talked openly. We had fun!

I miss them sleeping over at my place :(

I dont mind them sleeping here many times.. Seriously, I never felt bothered by that! I've wished that those times can happen again.

A guy in the left side of the picture with a black shirt, that's Kim Ji-Hoon. He is a korean guy. yeaah we used to tease him as our Mommy whose husband was Faisal (Big Daddy). It was fun to have him around. He was the funniest of the funny :P His korean accent made him funny!But he didnt care at all. He hated us calling him "Ahjushi" which means "Uncle". Poppy said that in Korea, men whose age is more than 20 can be called as "Ahjushi" hahaha. He,somehow,hated of being called as that. Perhaps he didnt want to admit that he's an ahjushi hahhaa :P

He got annoyed if I stared at him with my sarcastic look hehehe cause he said I looked scary woooo. The first day I met him was in Philipine School of Doha. There was Asian Food Festival. He came with Faisal and Saikat. I saw the guys teasing him cause there was no Korean's food stand there hahaha. I felt bad cause the guys teased him many times but Oba said "thats ok ich. He's used to it"

Now lets talk about Ka Ayu.

First time we met it was at my place. Ka ayu and Tante Sri's family came over. We talked about Mba Rini and Ka Ayu. Actually, Ka Ayu is Mba Rini's best friend eversince they were kids.They were seperated when Mba Rini came here in the year of 2000. In year 2006, Mba Rini went back to Medan. Year 2007 Ka Ayu came here to Qatar. They got seperated again. Later, Mba Rini came here. Oh Gosh! why did I write about their seperation???

Anyway, ka ayu slept over at my place around 3 days or more during Eid Fitr 2007. It was fuuuun! We talked about stuffs :P I cant even say it here hehee

I hate Economics!

It's already 1:28 am now. I've been editing my blog's template. Yeah Im so excited to make-over my blog since this is just the beginning. I bet later on I am gonna be lazy to update my blog :P .

Anyways, I've been staying at home since Ramadhan started. I've been idling around without doing my homeworks. OOOMMMMG! YEAAAH HOMEWORKS!!! My school is starting in 27th September. OH NOWAAAY! I havent done any of my homeworks! and you know what? the stupid part of me, is that, I gave my assignment papers to my Economics teacher which she said I had to do it again??! WTH!

Talking about school is surely giving me a headache! It stresses me out!Well, I do enjoy school life but not Economics Class.I hate Economics!!! Economics Teacher is the innocent one. She's new but INNOCENT!I felt bad when everyone in class never listened to her explanations which turned out to be my HATE-SUBJECT!WHY?because I cant understand anything in Economics! I've promised myself never take Economics later.But who knows?!

Aaaargh when I remember a subject named-Accountancy- huh! It annoys me much cause of my recent results! I do LOVE Accountancy but I hate my last exam. I had my confident during my exams hence I had no idea where I had my mistakes on my Accountancy exam!! hufff..Why did it out to be that bad??? I'd promised my Acc sir to score good marks on Acc exam.. again, why did it turn out to be bad?? How should I face Sir when I meet him later? Ya Allah! T__T

I guess Iam gonna hide myself when I see him ! yeah I MUST do that!

Ohh Mrs Ac**** (cant spell her name)... Do you hate me much?I seriously HATE your annoying-face when you stared at me with no reason! HAHHAA YOU ARE FUNNY MRS!

Nevermind, Im starting to like you since this summer. huh NOT! you gave me that paper! HAHHAA WHHYYY??! HAHHAA

There's another annoying subject but the teacher is the HERO of our class - Business Studies.

I LOVE her,NOT the SUBJECT she's teaching! uhm Neverthless, it's her teaching method makes me to understand well Business Studies :) Thanks to her <3

One more subject ie Informatics Practices.. I was so eager of attending this class from the beginning of my year. Eventhough our IP teacher is the LOUD-VOICE/HIGH PITCH type, I still LOVE the subject. It's a bit easy to understand :) I hope I can continue this subject later :)

ANYWAAAAY, WHY THE HELL AM I TALKING ABOUT SUBJECTS???

THINK ABOUT THE HOMEWORKS CHAAAAA!! NOT THE SUBJECTS !

Ya Allah, Please help me of doing my homeworks T__T i dont want to be lazy anymore. What if I gt a scolding from the teachers?? I dont want to cry infront of them :(

I am Blind Cause of an Invisible Light

"I've been blinded by an invisible light.."

Yeah that's what I am feeling right now.
I am stupid! Why did I realize everything just now?All the waiting, all the kindness... what is it for?? I don't need your understanding anymore.I am fine without your careness,without your sweet words. Cause I hate the fact that I've drowned to your world-to an unrealistic world. You've made me blind with your invisible light!
But I am thankful as no one notices my blindness... I am thankful that you don't even notice my blindness.
I am even happier that it is not too late to erase you.Cause I am not yet lost in the dessert.
Well, pardon me that I didn't see your true self all this time. Cause... I am blind. I can't see your true existence in this world...
Now, I feel that you are so unrealistic.
You are just a light that can be turned on or turned off.
You are like a wind that may come and may go.
So, you are not my everything. You are not fully exist in my fragile heart.

But....
Why did you hide your true self in front of me?Or.. is it because you knew that I am blind?

Light, please.. I don't want to keep you.I don't even want to reminisce about you.
I promise I will let you "off". Cause I am not yet lost.
I will find my new light someday.
The light which is brighter than your light. The light that makes me see the wise world.

A Goodbye Yet a Goodbye

Aku baru ngerti skrg kenapa dia lama balesnya.. ya ampuun ternyata dia tuh lagi ada masalah.. I can tell that he seems so desperado.. Though i dont know what it is about. Once i told him, "uhm if you dont mind, you can share your problems with me you know hahaaha". but i guess its kinda hard for him to tell his troubles. i just hope that he can settle everything and wont be so stressed.
I even asked him whether it is about his job or something but he said it doesnt related to any of his jobs.. im really worried! i hope its not a complicated matter :(
Anyway, let me "copy/paste" his last message to me huhuhu:

Arya Pranadipta Muharam Surya September 13 at 6:23pm

yaa arya sll berdoa ga putus.. krn arya ga ngerti apa yg hrs dilakuin saat ini, not bout my job, but like evrything which soo close with me, are in the trouble..
jd arya lg ngerasa agak tertekan, tp ga pny kmampuan apa2 utk ngerubah ini jd lbh baik, okey thks 4 ur support, 1. 1 nya org yg support arya cm chay.. wlw chay ga tau arya brmslh dg apa, arya ngerasa sng, krn chay msh bs bcr yg nenangin..
kyk buat bbrp wktu arya mau de active account ini, smp nnt udh lbh baik arya akan buka lagi.. arya akan bc inbox trakhir chay, trs mgkn baru arya matiin ya.

I hope this is just for awhile
Cause I'm used to him telling me his daily routines,
I'm used to his kindness,
I'm used to his understandings.
He isn't the type of person who forces you around and follows what he tells you
He is not perfect, but he is just a human nature
Yes, it is him, the on-off friend.


I think Im gonna miss him.. but its ok.. since my school is starting soon so i gotta be busier.
So lets call it as a "break". It doesnt matter if this "break" is forever :)

Wah kena deh!

Uhm aku pengen bercerita sedikit nih..

So,ada manusia yg berjenis kelamin "lelaki" tinggal di Cinere, Jakarta dan kuliah di Universitas Trisakti yg berulang tahun skitar 2 hr sebelum ulang tahun Ayah (021288).Seinget aku sih dia jurusan Graphic Design gitu.
Nah jadi gini, sebenernya aku rada lupa sih kpn kita mulai berbincang tapi seinget aku pertama kali kita bertegur sapa lewat Facebook chatbox.yup bener chatbox!Dia yg nyapa duluan..hahaha jujur awal kenal ma dia tuh dodol bgt deeeeh..
Jadi ada cewe yg namanya Dwiya Novi..After I accepted her friend request kita jadi wall2an gitu&gini nih awal2nya, "Kakak di Doha Qatar ya??uhm kakak kenal Arya dong?" Then i replied,"iya aku anak Doha Qatar. uhm Arya yg dulu disini ya??iya bener kenal dia..loh dwiya kok tau dia?" Blablablabla.. Ga lama kemudian ada cowo bernama Arya Panadipta Muharam Surya sent a friend request [di Fb nih bok].
A-I-U-E-Oooo dr situ tuh aku jadi tau kalo ada cowo yg namanya Aryaa..ohh yeesss, jadi pas aku cek mutual friendnya dia siapa.. dan ternyataa si Dwiya Novi itu.Jujur aku sempet bingung,"loh?jadi yg di maksud Dwiya itu si Arya yg ini atau yg mana sih??".. Daripada aku bingung gitu lebih baik aku langsung aja tanya ke Dwiya lewat wall. Tapi dia bilang,"Bukan kak.Yg Dwiya maksud itu bener..Arya yg masih sekola dan dulu di Qatar.Dia tmn skola aku kak :)"

Seinget aku sih pertama kali chat kita selalu ngomongin ttg gadget gitu dan sampe berlanjut obrolan kita lewat wall.Setelah lewat wall, kita berlanjut lagi di message.. Mungkin lebih enak lewat message kali ya..lebih privacy..

Arya Pranadipta Muharam Surya January 22 at 4:32pm

ya, ..ok sip..
next klo ktemu, jwb yg kmrn blm dijawab ya-
hha..baek2 ya cha' jgn sedih2 atau mikir yg bete2..

Nah ini nih pertama kali kita lanjut ke message. aku juga lupa apa yg kita sebelumnya omongin kok sampe dia blg "jwb yg kmrn blm dijawab" ???
woooww aku lupa apa itu.
well, i think this was after me and Iyo broke up.
Sbrnnya yg ini cuma bentar doang kita message2an.
Setelah sekian lamanya kita lose contact..

Arya Pranadipta Muharam Surya May 26 at 4:52pm

..hei apa kabarnya chay? msh inget ga ya sm arya..??

Icha Yahya May 26 at 4:54pm

aryaaaa
finally u're back!
where have u been??
haha i was about to text u tomorrow :)

kabar chay baik2 aja.
kabar arya gmn?

Arya Pranadipta Muharam Surya May 26 at 4:59pm

tomorrow ada apa chay? arya ga ngeh ni..

arya baik chay, cuma emg lagi sibuk, krn mau UAS, hee
jd emg FB arya ga aktif chat nya..
klo komunikasi pk inbox aja

Icha Yahya May 26 at 5:01pm

oia yah lagi pada byk yg sibuk UAS.
emng kapan??
slesainya kpn?

tomorrow?? hehehe i have to go somewhere away from Qatar :P

Arya Pranadipta Muharam Surya May 26 at 5:05pm

blm UAS nya chay, tp byk tugas yg harus diselesein, dan waktunya mepet2 gt..tgl bbrp minggu lg udh hrs kelar..

oh mau vacation nih..cie2
tp ga ke jakarta chay? klo ke jakarta kita bisa jalan2 heehee
kmn nih..??

Yah begitu deehh.sampe kita ngomongin daging onta. Ternyata dia tau kebab onta hahaha
Nah setelah itu kan dia UAS.. jadi dia vakum bentar nge FBan..
yaah karna dia vakum, kita jadi bener2 lose contact lagi dehh..

Pada suatu malam, sekitar jam 4 subuh di jakarta. Kita comment2an di status fbnya.
Dan pada akhirnya kita lanjut di message lagi deh.

Arya Pranadipta Muharam Surya June 13 at 12:17am (waktu Qatar)

yap, msh ni soalnya kan mau naik semester Insya Allah jd gini deh, ga tdur.. udah makan? skrg jam brapa, maap lupa..hee

Icha Yahya June 13 at 12:20am

beda 4 jam dari jkrt hehee
uda makan dong haduu malah full bgt nih perut sampe2 tadi mau muntah ya amuun..parah deh gara2 di kasi makan ma mamanya tmn :)
but nevermind it was such a good food :)
anyway aria,i think u should take more rest before everything becomes messy :P
im actually sleepy right now but i can keep my eyes open just because of F**** FB..fb gets me so addicted.FB VIRUS!!

BLABLABLABLABALABLA

Dan sampe beberapa hr ini kita masih lanjut message2an. yah ga nyangka aja kita jadi sering bercerita ttg sehari2 kita lewat message ini.
Pernah sekali, pas sebelum ujian icha nge deactivate Facebook account icha. haha dan Arya lgsg smsin aku dan bertanya knp dgn Fb aku. yaudah aku jelasin kenapa dan apa alasannya. Dan sempet berlanjut lewat sms.

Huaaaa aku lagi ga tau deh gmn gitu.. Gini loh jeung, udah 2 hr ini dia belum bales huhuh jadi kepikiran aaaaah!
HADUUUUUUH GMNA YA?! aku awal2nya sempet berfikir ga mau jadi ketagihan dan kebiasaan bercerita ma dia. karna aku takut bakal ada rasa "suka".
Tapi ga tau kenapa tiap kali dia reply message aku, aku selalu ngebales DAN itu udah melakukannya without thinking. Udah ky kebiasaan bgt gitu deeeh~
Mau tau kenapa aku takut sampe ada rasa suka ma dia?Udah berpengalaman ya bok, aku dan iyo dulu juga awalnya message2an gini. ehh malah sampe suka2an gitu dan malah sampe pacaran.
Aku takut dong itu terulang lagi, karna...aku dan Arya jaraknya jauh ye..aku dimana dia dimana.
Tapi yang ada malaaah sekarang..saat ini aku sering nunggu balesan dr dia hahahaa tapi mungkin aku lagi ga ada kerjaan kali ya atau mungkin lagiiii...uhmm...hahaha ga tau deh..

Anyway, kalo liat dr fotonya Arya sih hahaha mukanya tuh ky awet muda gitu loh jeung.. seperti anak SMA gituu haha padahal umurnya mau ke 21 kan ye thn ini.Lucu deh~ hahhaa pengen deh majang foto dia cumaaa hahaha ga aaah!

bibubahahabadutbalabalabalabumbum

Pernah ga sih kamu ga bisa tdr karna kangen ma seseorang yg mungkin dia cuma hanya sebentar aja ada di hidup kamu dan dia saat ini sedang jauuuh bgt dr kamu?mengingat masa lalu..yg entah itu memalukan ataupun menyedihkan :)

Yep, itu barusan semalem kejadian.

Nah jadi gini ceritanya.. ada seorang cowo yg namanya... hahaha lets call him as Badut :P

Waktu pertama kali ketemu dia tuh kalo ga salah di rumahnya..yah bener di rumahnya! Sebenernya rada lupa sih kapan pertama kali ketemu dia dan gimana. jujur aku lupa bgt cause it was ages ago. All i remember is that he came downstairs and greeted us then he went back upstairs. I think that was how we met. Actually, that time i didnt even bother about him. hahaha secara i was still 11 year-old. anyway, im trying to remember how aku dan badut bisa jadi akrab gitu. I think it was 2 or 3 years after we met. yeeah itu kejadiannya gara2 Mba Rini yg kenal dia lewat Msn/Mirc.Dulu sih ga pernah ada rasa suka atau gmn gitu. jadi gini loh jeung, setelah bazaar 2003 di AlGhazal Club. Ada beberapa gosip mengatakan kalo D suka ma aku hahaha yeep awalnya sih rada percaya ga percaya tapi yaudalah pasrah wessss.

Karna hasil kerja keras si "abang" yg memakai jurus jitu yg pada akhirnya aku gave up dan memilih untuk mencoba menjalani sebuah hubungan dgn D. tapi lama kelamaan kerasa juga sih yg namanya suka ma D.gmn2 dia pcr aku kan?yah walaupun bisa di bilang ngobrol di telf jarang2 dan smsan jg jarang2 dan hanya memakai internet sebagai komunikasi kita berdua,tp rasa suka sdkt demi sdkt timbul di hati ku *ceileee cuit cuit*..yah mari kita lanjut..nah terus kan si D (ngmng2 kok jadi ngmgin si D sih?)..ohh iya!back to Badut..nah selama aku ma si D, otomatis si "abang" gmn2 selalu ngebantu saya dan D untuk bertemu dll.sampe2 saya dan nenek saya nginep di Alkhor (yah sebenernya krn emang di ajak ma nyokapnya sih). Tapi gmn ya, walaupun saya pacaran ma si D tapi tinggal satu community,satu lingkungan,satu atap,satu kamar (loh??) ma si "abang", yang ada malah rasa suka ini muncul pada org "ini".karna pelan2 aku meliat tingkah asli dia kalo di rumah (yg kynya org lain tdk tau). Siang2 kita makanin dua kura-kura kesayangan dia,kura-kura kecil dan kura-kura besar. Dan setelah di kasih mam kula-kulanya, si abang malah lomba-in dua kula-kulanya.Yang ada malah kura2 kecil yg menang.Dalem hati sempet berkata, "hihi lucu jg yah dia.ternyata hobinya main ma kura2.pdhl udah gede gini :) ". yah saya rasa dr situlah saya memulai rasa suka ma dia dan sebenernya saya juga tidak menyadarinya saat itu juga.Bener,cukup lama saya tidak menyadarinya bahwa saya udah lama suka ma dia.karna slama saya pcrn ma D, saya cuma menganggap si abang cuma sebatas "sepupu" yg seperti org2 skitar mengira.walaupun setelah saya putus ma D, saya masih belum menyadari bahwa saya emang ada hati buat si abang.karna stlh saya putus ma D,saya langsung lanjut ma si M hahaha (nah ini dia, lari ke M lagi deh.Badutnya mana dong?)ok deh mari kita singkat saja..

Tahun ke tahun, bulan ke bulan, planet ke planet,hari ke hari..

Hingga sampe akhir thn 2006..dimana saya bener2 kaget ketemu dia di party bday tmn saya.Jujur,saat itu saya bener2 kaget.Tidak nyangka bakal ketemu dia yg dia udah tdk lagi di Qatar (kebetulan sehari sblm party saya sempat nangis gara2 kgn berat ma dia *lebay bgt sih pake nangis*). dan tanpa sadar, saya berteriak kencaaang sekali.sampe2 org2 yg di party berfikir "ada org gila lepas".Tapi tak apalah,biar kan anjing menggong2 saya tetep berteriak hahaaha *ga lah*.

Tepat pada tgl 1 january 2007, dia mengajak saya nonton di cinema City Center. *kok jadi pake "saya" ye?ky introgasi di kepolisian deh eike* saat itu eike ngajak esi dan iqbal nih ye(karna emang eike lagi good mood maka iqbal pun eike jemput bok).tapi entah kenapa yg kita tonton SAW 3.betapa tidak romantisnya hahaha. sekali lagi hati berkata, "tak apa lah.jarang2 dia ngajak nonton dan traktir aku".

Setelah aku merasa begitu bahagia, sejenak ada pikiran yg mampir ke otak ku "apa bener dia ngajak karna pgn nonton ma aku?atau mgkn dia berharap R jg dtg dan dia pgn pedekate ma R?apa dia cuma make aku supaya dia bisa deket ma R?" entah lahh!nama R selalu membuat aku cemburu jika mengingat ttg dia dan R.sekali lagi gpp, biarkan aku geer dan enjoy kebahagian ini.

Summer 2007 --summer yg terindah yg pernah aku alami sampe saat ini.

Emang bener aku dan Rn pacaran tapi entah kenapa aku bisa2nya pergi ma Badut dan bahkan nginep dirumahnya. Di tengah perjalanan kerumahnya dia sempat berkata,"cha, ka T lagi ga ada di Qatar loh.Dia lagi liburan di Malaysia.gmn cha?gpp?" Dalem hati,"OMG!! IS HE CRAZY OR WHAT?KENAPA PAS UDAH JAUH GINI BARU BILANG??TERUS NANTI SAMPE DIRUMAHNYA GMN?AKU MESTI GMN?GMN NGADEPIN ORTUNYA?GILA YA!PARAH DAH NIH ANAK." tapi aku hanya bisa diam di depannya dan berkata, "APA??SERIUS?GA USAH MAIN2 DEH BG!!ICHAA MAU PULANG!" ehh dia malah jawab, "bener cha!serius!yaudah kalo mau pulang abang stop-in disini ya..hehehe".. ihhh najis!sebenernya conversation ini bukan hanya aku dan dia berdua, tapi ada org ketiga juga hehe yaitu ka T**ra tapi di sensor aja ye Ka T**ranya :P

Sehari setelah aku nginep; nyokapnya,bokapnya,dia dan aku balik ke Doha.kita pergi ke rumah tante Tami buat makan bakso. sampe sana ternyata banyak ibu2.tau sendiri deh kalo udah ada ibu2,selalu ada gosip.BENER!stlh hari itu aku di gosipin pcrn ma dia. uhm gimana ya?kaget sih..iya, cuma kaget kaget senang gitu deh wakakaaka

Pokoknya summer 2007 bener2 summer yg indah. kita juga pergi ke sealine bareng tmn2 dia dan ka ayu. sebenernya itu summer yg menyusahkan juga, karna di sisi lain..."AKU KAN PCRNYA SI Rn??!!TIDAK TIDAK!tidak seharusnya aku begini.ini sama aja aku menghianati pacar ku.aku tidak bedanya ma G yg pernah menghianati aku!org yg pernah aku benci karna pernah begitu ke aku.tapi aku?ternyata aku sama saja ky G,si brengsek!ENGGA!ga mgkn lah aku sama ky G.lebih baik aku putusin aja si Rn dan lepaskan Badut.yah bener!lebih baik aku kehilangan dua2nya drpd aku serakah begini." Ini yg ada dlm pikiranku after i overjoyed myself dgn si Badut.Dan pada akhirnya aku kehilangan dua2nya!gpp,ini lebih baik drpd aku memiliki dua2nya. :)

Lagi lagi, awal thn 2009.. aku cuma sekali ketemu dia.Itu juga karna aku emang supaya ga "kepuhunan" --kata org banjar nih.Bahkan aku nge invite R,siapa tau pertanyaanku yg dulu2 kejawab dgn aku melihat R dan dia ketemu di dpn mataku sndiri.eeh yg ada malah bukan kejawab,aku malah kembali ke dulu yg nge enjoy diriku dan GR!gmn ga GR coba!dia isengin aku mulu selama ketemu,pake bilang mataku makin sipitlah,terus pas di cinema kaki ku di injek2lah, terus randomly kita dpt seat di cinema bersebelahan tapi kita sama2 tolak *kan depan org2 gengsi eike ye bok!* eeeeeessshhh!saat itu aku beda dgn sewaktu ma Rn.Emang bener saat itu aku ma Onyid pcrn,dan kita terpisah oleh jarak wakakaa..dia di indo,aku di Qatar tapi aku tetep kepikiran Onyid kok. Pulang2, aku berusaha tuk tdk terlalu kepikiran oleh Badut karna aku takut jika aku terlalu GR dan berakhir dgn yg tidak sesuai dgn HARAPAN..aku bisa hancur..hancur lebur berkeping2.hahaaahhaa

Sampe akhirnya Summer 2009,thn ini, BBQ di Messaid..3 hr sebelum hari itu tiba,aku udah diet mati2an supaya dia ga bilang "ihh icha gendutan deh" karna aku tau dia selalu nyadar kalo aku lagi GENDUT!

Tapi apa?!pas di hari H, dia tak mengherankan aku?!wakaka sedih bgt deh!pdhl aku udah sedikit2 caper gitu deh HAHAHAH well,sebenernya ada sih kita ngbrol2 bentar tapi itu cuma BENTAR!dalem hati berkata, "tak apa lah.aku udah bertemu dia.itu sudah cukup untuk membuatku gembira" --cape deh hahaha.

Dan sampe saat ini, sekarang.. aku tidak mau lagi berHARAP tinggi ma dia. karna aku takut..aku bener bener takut aku jadi hancuuur bgt karna HARAPAN yg pernah ada ga terjadi atau ga berlanjut lagi.aku berharap, "YA ALLAH SAYA TIDAK MAU GE ER LAGI.EMANG BERAT MENGHILANGKAN PERASAAN INI TAPI KU MOHON YA ALLAH UDAH CUKUP"

Introduction

yep!here we go, this is my first post in my blog. hehe im really new to blogging world so i think i need to get used to it. well, the reason why i joined blog was because.. i wanted to share some world of me and my surroundings :P hahahhaa anyway, i have no idea what else to write right now cause im in a blank-mind :P :P