A Night in Venice

Mille-feuille au mocca,gâteau au fromage blanc,fleur de lys pie,duo choco pie.
Now you guess which is which :)
These cakes are available in Paul Café.

Uhm, there was kind of like "ladies' hang out" yesterday for a while. Ccha, Poppy and moi went to a cafe called Paul in Villaggio.
I like the place though it was not that comfy cause it is located in the mid-way (between H&M and Zara Home Center) so people might stare at you while you're eating hahaha naaah. Well, when I recall my memory, I have seen many people go there to eat meals instead of cakes or drinks. We wanted to try the meals but hahahaha we were broke so ended up taking KFC and Sushi. Oh yeaaaah we didn't take pics of sushi :(
My sister, Poppy, ordered eel sushi while me and Ccha ordered California Sushi (cucumber,salmon,tuna). I was stuffed enough with just those (include KFC hehe).

Around 6 pm, Esi and Faris came and tagged along. Then we went to The Pearl and meeting up with Uty,Ari,Sandi and Lingga.
We took so many pics there and it was hilarious. The place was awesome, IT'S LUXURIOUS!
There were a lot of those "expensive-looking" cruisers.
Hahaha me and Esi started to wonder "what if we have a friend like Goo Jun Pyo or Dao Ming Shi (Boys Over Flowers or Meteor Garden Drama) and sure that we would be in that cruiser right now" HAHAHAHA ohh maaan this is just dreaming! :D A dream that will hardly come true or MAYBE WILL NEVER COME TRUE!

At 8:30 pm we went to Aspire Park with Ccha's car and sang Justin Bieber's song One Time (again and again). She dropped us there and she went back home cause her mom called her so. :)
During our "hang out" in Aspire Park, we were playing I-dont-know-the-name Card and SERIOUSLY I WAS REALLY SUCK AT IT! I lost so many times. So I gave up at the end haha. It was fun.
Then I went back home around 10:40s pm with the help of Esi dropping me and Poppy home.
She was stiiiiill good with her driving.

"Thanks ladies and gentlemen for the hang out"

Older Brother

Dear Kuya,

I think it's time for me to forgive you and now it is my turn to apologize, "I am really sorry". Maybe I was selfish that I did not try to understand your situation.

Uhm I have no idea what else to say. Uhmmm anyway, I heard that you have a surgery on 27th?Good luck, hope you'll be fine hehehe.

Concerning a matter of you and my bff, I am really cool with that. It's your choice, your life and you go through with it. I am just gonna support for whatever path you both choose, well ofcourse a positive way :D
Kuya,if you really like her ahem ahem ahem don't ever disappoint her okay?You know what I mean right?She'd been through kinds of relationships......

Okay kuya, don't feel terrible and miserable now hahaha we're fine ok?

Bye,

ICHA YAHYA

BFF <3

Dear My Sweetbottom,

I am here to honestly tell you that I am sorry. I am very sorry if I ever did something that hurt your feelings especially during the matter of “3 of us” lately.

Maybe I was a bit selfish that I could not control my emotion and said harshly or emotionally to you. It’s me! I am the type of person who can’t control my emotion, and you as my bff please guide me or sadar kan gw pas gw lagi emosi.

I am thankful and grateful to have you as my bff <3 Perhaps it’s hard to find a bff like you. :)

I really hope that our friendship is not just a status (like you wrote on your previous post on Tumblr). I have a strong faith in you, Sweetbottom hehehe.

Oh yeah, talking about “sweetbottom” hahahah I am sorry that I ever spanked your ass in public HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAA OOOPSSS!

No no I will not do that again, but I am sure you will miss me being like that to you HAHAHHAA PEDE!

Okay Sweetbottom, that’s it for now. I hope no more stupid drama going on again later.

Yours Faithfully,

Pumpkin

ICHA YAHYA

Tears

I hate to cry, I hate to cry!
Cries let out my tears
Tears show my weaknesses

Why am I so emotional?
I should not be angry but smile
I have a deep hard feeling that me-myself don't understand it
Like a lost girl in a dark forest who doesn't know where to go
But cry all night long.

Why am I so heartless?
I should not be mean but patience
I have a strong feeling that I can't easily forgive
Like a volcano blows its lava
Becomes as hard as rock.

Why am I so dumb?
I should not say harshly but calmly
I can not apology
And say "I am sorry" easily.

SUNSET MOOD

Uhm this sunset shows how my mood is right now. Its colour is blue to red; bright to dark.
My mind is......... blank??! I can only think BLACK or DARK!
I wanted to tell how my feelings were but something just came in the way and that really pissed me off then changed my mood. I didn't mean to blame 'her' for the changed of my mood. I blamed myself for not taking things in a cold-headed way.
She is my best friend,I know! But there's just one thing that she can't manage between me and her, that is, she sometimes brought up the matter of the '3 of us' and you know what?I hate it! Or maybe I hate myself to keep running away. Do you think I am really running away from this matter?? Or maybe I am blind that I can't see this matter?

Okay, let me be honest. Perhaps it's really hard for me to admit everything I see maybe because I never expected this matter to really happen. Time really goes so fast!
Huaaaaaaaa I don't understand myself at all!Who am I?? AAAAAAAAARRRRGHHHH!

Okay okay okay.... forget it! Aaaargh let me mention the word "SHOCK" shhh!
Ha, I was actually shocked to know that he *should I mention his name?* actually asked her out? It's not a big deal for me though. It's just that I didn't expect that to be so fast. Cause you know what? I could really feel the difference. Here let me explain more specific, he used to be real close to me and my sister, and talk about lotsa stuffs;he picked me up and we went somewhere; brought foods for me and family blablabla. So I am used to him being like that to me. I honestly thought this is just it - it's not like a special relationship like those fucking lovers though many people misunderstood our "closeness" as a boyfie-girlfie thang but seriously we never felt that way! Anyways, I guess all this shit happened after my birthday in Sealine. I didn't even know what had gone wrong with him??? I felt that he suddenly avoided me with NO FUCKING REASON! At first, I didn't bother about that cause I was busy with my damn exams and school stuffs *yeah-ASS!*. I heard no news from him and he didn't even wish me luck for the exams like he used to so I was like "huh?WHAT-F-EVER!".
I kinda knew that something was going on there behind me like he and her getting close but again ME NOT BOTHER. Why?? Cause he avoided me and he didn't talk to me. SO WHY SHOULD I FUCKING CARE?!

Due to this like-I-don't-care act, there had been a miscommunication between the three of us especially me and him. I pretended like "hahaha come on guys, I am fine!I am cool.Awww come on.HAHAHA" Yeah right, that was NOT! I actually felt terrible cause I didn't know what to do in front of her and him. So my acting was AWESOME! They didn't even realise that. But I kept hiding and I even ran away to UmmSaid to chill and refresh. As the time ran so fast like a dog catching a cat, I chilled there and played with kids and blablablabla. But still I didn't get my answers to solve at least one. So I was sure I still kept it inside and could not let it out. I wanted to cry again but I couldn't cause I never wanted to bring that matter. Whenever the matter visited my brain, I tried to erase or kick the matter away from my brain. "I don't want my brain to be messy cause of that matter", I said silently.

THE POINT IS, WHAT IS REALLY GOING ON HERE? I DON'T EVEN KNOW EXACTLY! ME AND HIM, WHAT HAS GONE WRONG BETWEEN US?? WHAT IS THE REAL PROBLEM? I DON'T UNDERSTAND EITHER! I DON'T GET THIS WHOLE PLAY.. OH MY GOSH!
COULD SOMEONE PLEASE GIVE A SPECIFIC ANSWER TO THIS??

SABAAAAAR!

GW UDAH CUKUP BERUSAHA BAIK MA LO TAPI APA? LO TUH YAH GA TAU DI UNTUNG TAI SUMPA! BIKIN GW NANGIS,MARAH! SUMPA LO TUH BISANYA CUMA BIKIN SAKIT HATI GW AJA. "YA ALLAAAAAAH, KENAPA SIH SAYA BISA KENAL MANUSIA SEPERTI DIA?" BENER2 DEH. COBAAN JUGA BUAT DIRI GW KALI YA. MANA TUH ORG GW KENAL BANGET LAGI HADUUU SABAR CHAA SABAAAAAAR! susah emang ngadepin manusia (he actually called himself as SATAN) seperti dia. GW BENER2 GA HABIS PIKIR MA DIA YA ALLAAAAH T_T


H-U-A-U-A-U-A SABAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAR!! UUUFFFFF

SANDRA???!!

Hari ini ada bazaar di KBRI. Seperti biasa mama ngisi. Aku hanya duduk di belakang mama sambil ngotak ngatik hp *padahal cuma ngecek pulsa sih hehe* terus ibu2 pada menyerbu jualan dan menyantapnya. Hingga akhirnya ada salah satu ibu2 yg aku sangaaaat kenal yaitu Julak. Mama berkata dgn pelan,"Cha tuh ada Julak". Aku hanya menjawab,"Iya mah". Aku hanya melihat beliau sekilas dan terus kembali dgn pandangan aku ke hp *sbnrnya cuma buka2 inbox sih*. Aku hanya diem dan pura2 tidak melihat, KENAPA?karna aku lagi ga mood banget untuk bersapa ria dgn siapa pun. Saat itu aku kebawa suasana bete gara2 aku kira i wore a wrong dress ternyata lama kelamaan byk org2 yg ga pake formal dress fiuuuh. Untung aku udah mandi rada keliatan bersih gitu deh jadinya,tadinya aku tdk berniat untuk mandi.

Mood masih belum reda,aku buka aja twitter lwt tuh hp then i posted about how bored i was di KBRI.Ternyata Faris ngebales so I told him to come hahahaa so then he came in one hour. Terus Faris telf boy untuk dateng dan blg,"Boy kesini dong ada Dhea" ehh beneran deh ga lama kemudian si Boy dtg beneran pake taxi lg., katanya sih disuruh ma ayah tuk nemenin mama ahahha alasan banget sumpa deh. Ehh pas lagi duduk2 ternyata ada 1 org lg dtg yaitu Fikar.Fiuuuh finally aku ada temennya deh.Selama itu kita bercerita2 ttg University and stuffs hingga sampe perut kita main drum saing2an."Oooops aku laper lagi",kata Faris. Padahal ya dia udah makan nasi dan jengkol balado sebelum dtg ke KBRI dan pas dtg2 langsung nyantap nasi uduk.ckckck Faris Faris!

Kita pulang jam 1:30an. Tau ga sih pas pulang2 mama bilang apa? Aku kan masuk kemar mandi nih buat mandi lagi, mama di luar sambil teriak2 gini "CHAAAA KAMU UDAH TAU BELUM KALO SI ANDRA LAGI DI QATAR??". Tapi aku cuma menjawab "IYA MAAAH ICHA TAU KOK.TAPI MAMA KOK BISA TAU DIA ADA DISINI?" "YA TAU LAH KAN TADI NGOBROL BENTAR MA JULAK.KAMU SIH DIKASIH TAU ADA JULAK MALAH DIEM AJA!" aaaaiiiih si mamah ini!Aku bukan jaim sih cuma rada GA MOOOOOOD!Bukan hanya ke JULAK tapi ke semua IBU2.

I am dying

I hate the words "I feel like I am dying"

I have heard that many times since dad's disease back. He has asthma and hard headache. This hard headache I mean is different than the usual headache. There is a frozen blood inside his brain (if I'm not wrong). AND YOU KNOW WHAT? He has high blood pressure. We realized that 2 days ago in Messaid at Uncle Haris's house, Auntie Fitri took the test. His blood pressure was 190. We were all shocked and Uncle Kusmoyo took him to Ummsaid Hospital. So ever since and then, we take extra care on him like controlling his foods with less salt,saledri juice,cucumber juice etc. This really helps him to reduce his blood pressure. I hope that he will be fine sooner!
I dont want to see him suffering like this ever again. WHAT IF HE REALLY IS GOING TO DIE? I DONT WANT TO THINK OF IT! I CAN NEVER THINK ME-MYSELF LIVE WITHOUT HIM?!

ALLAH PLEASE HELP US TO GO THROUGH ALL THESE SUFFERINGS AND COBAAN :(

someone comes in the way

Salah satu hal yg paling gw benci selama perjalanan hidup gw itu adalah adanya org ketiga di persahabatan gw!

Maksud gw org ketiga itu adalah cowo!

Kejadian ini bukan sekali atau dua kali. Kalo di hitung2 udah kesekian kalinya.

Tapi lama2 gw udah kebal aja deh ngadapin situasi yg beginian. Pasaran bok soalnye!

Okay deh, gw pgn cerita dikit nih ttg apa yg belakangan sedang terjadi.

Gw punya sobat yg tiba2 di tembak ma seseorg yg gw kenal banget! Jujur, gw sempet kaget pas dia cerita ke gw kalo dia di tembak ma tuh org. Bukan kaget karna dia ga pantes...TIDAK! Gw kaget karna secepat itu kah tuh cowo nembak sobat gw?Karna setau gw tuh org kalo suka/pedekate ma cewe biasanya lama. Tapi gw pikir2, mungkin skrg dia udah berubah. Dia ga mau yg lalu terjadi lagi dan gw pikir pasti dia bener2 suka ma sobat gw ini :)

Gw turut senang mendengar berita yg menggembirakan ini karna kata sobat gw dia udah lama tidak merasakan yg namanya bercinta. Setelah dia putus ma pacar terakhirnya di indo, itu skitar beberapa thn yg lalu, dia ngejomblo. Well, ada sih beberapa cowo yg dia sempet deket tapi bukan sebagai PACAR,tapi hanya sebagai TTM :P

Dia terus bercerita dan bercerita ttg apa yg terjadi between her and him. Gw juga ikut senang mendengar cerita ini semua. Cuma ada satu hal yg ngeganjil yaitu gw skrg ngerasa dia apa2 selalu tuh cowo tuh cowo tuh cowo dan tuh cowo! Gw gpp sih, cuma rada terasa asing aja sih, gw seperti ga exist lagi dimata dia. Dia skrg gimana2 ma tuh cowo.

Uhm apa mungkin karna gw ngerasa a bit lonely aja?? Bisa juga sih begitu! Yang jelas gw ga mungkin jealous ok? Karna itu ga mungkin banget. Kalo pun jealous, gw cuma jealous karna sobat gw kynya lebih dkt ke dia drpd gw. Itu aja kok! Gw cuma ga mau dia mikir gw jealous karna tuh cowo??! NO WAY!

Mau tau kenapa gw takut sobat gw ini mikirnya gw jealous ma tuh cowo?Karna sebelum mereka jadi deket gini, gw ma tuh cowo deket bgt. Bahkan keluarga gw udah kenal bgt ma dia dan gw juga kenal ma keluarganya. Wajar dong kalo misalnya sobat gw ada pemikiran gw jealous. Kan tiba2 aja mrk jadi dkt dan tuh cowo malah ga dkt lagi ma gw gara2 mrk sering bareng.

Sebenernya sempet sih ada rasa kurang srek gitu.You know why?Karna ini semua terjadi terlalu cepat dan gw belum siap untuk nge adjust semua ini. Dan satu hal lagi yg bikin aneh, si cowo ini tidak cerita2 ke gw! Ini bikin gw ngerasa betrayed by him. Gw ga masalah mereka mau lovey-dovey an kek gw cuma butuh tuh cowo ngejelasin juga bukan hanya sobat gw yg bercerita ke gw! Kalo emang tuh cowo ngerasa gw ini adik/tmn nya(seperti yg selama ini dia panggil/blg), seharusnya dia dgn mudah menceritakan soal ini ke gw. Kan dia bisa aja ngelakukannya seperti biasanya?!

Tapi sudah lah buat apa di bahas?Toh tuh cowo udah pergi gini ke negaranya. Paling nanti dia balik2 kesini gw udah adjust with everything. Oh ya gw lupa, semalem sebenernya gw ketemu dia sih dan dia sprt menunjukan expresi kalo dia pgn blg sesuatu ke gw pas dia duduk di samping gw tapi berhubung lagi rame jadi itu impossible aja tuk di bahas. Lagian gw jg ga mau dia ngebahas di saat itu jg, karna gw ga mau aja atmosphere diruangan itu jadi berubah.

Skitar jam 9an dia pulang, dia meluk semua anak2. Hingga akhirnya dia dtg ke gw dan meluk gw. Gw dan dia tidak ngomong apa2; istilahnya say "Take Care.Have fun" aja tdk ada.

Setelah dia pergi Mike berkata "Are you okay now?" I said,"Im totally fine mike :)"

Gw cukup senang dgn adanya Mike disamping gw. Dia ngerti kondisi dan feelings gw. Bukan hanya karna dia mantan gw, tapi dia juga SOBAT TERBAIK gw!Gw pernah senang bgt pas dia ngenalin gw ke tmn2 kampusnya; dia bilang gini, "This is Icha, one of my bestfriends" awwww so nice of him :)

Semalem gw pgn banget bilang 'Terima Kasih Mike" tapi ga tau kenapa kok berat bgt ya bilangnya?Jujur gw tuh kadang suka kaku dgn hal yg begituan. Gw pgn blg terima kasih ke Mike tapi gimana ya?Besok dia udah mesti pergi ke Indonesia :(

I'm gonna miss you bud! Gw ga bisa kabur2an ma lo lagi deh wakakakakakakaa

KARMA

nowaaay, gw takut bgt deh ma yg namanya karma!

setelah beberapa makian buat tuh org.. kenapa malah jadi begini?!

yang ada gw ma dia malah jadi gimana gitu.well, ini hal yg paling gw takutin seumur hidup! kenapa malah jadi turn out to be like this?! seperti kemaren gw jalan bedua ma dia?! eewww

tau ga sih, gw pernah bilang gw harap gw ga pernah liat tampang dia dan ga pernah mau ketemu dia seumur hidup gw.diiiiih skrg apa dong jadinya??yg ada malah ketemu dan jalan bedua lagi?! EWW CUIHH!

maaaaan, gw bener2 takut KARMA.gw takut apa yg gw bilang turn out to be the opposite way!

YA ALLAH MOHON AMPUNI PERKATA2AN SAYA YA ALLAH T_T