I am dying

I hate the words "I feel like I am dying"

I have heard that many times since dad's disease back. He has asthma and hard headache. This hard headache I mean is different than the usual headache. There is a frozen blood inside his brain (if I'm not wrong). AND YOU KNOW WHAT? He has high blood pressure. We realized that 2 days ago in Messaid at Uncle Haris's house, Auntie Fitri took the test. His blood pressure was 190. We were all shocked and Uncle Kusmoyo took him to Ummsaid Hospital. So ever since and then, we take extra care on him like controlling his foods with less salt,saledri juice,cucumber juice etc. This really helps him to reduce his blood pressure. I hope that he will be fine sooner!
I dont want to see him suffering like this ever again. WHAT IF HE REALLY IS GOING TO DIE? I DONT WANT TO THINK OF IT! I CAN NEVER THINK ME-MYSELF LIVE WITHOUT HIM?!

ALLAH PLEASE HELP US TO GO THROUGH ALL THESE SUFFERINGS AND COBAAN :(